I failed to get to church this Sunday as the Mrs was stewarding at the Moon Walk in London So, no James this week but I think it’s time to get my second #SH2012 grumble off my chest…
I enjoy sung worship, sometimes too much! My daughter accuses me of singing too loudly in church – but I am convinced that’s only really true for Be Thou My Vision. (Be Thou My Vision kills me every time. With a Bodhran accompaniment, I leave the floor.)
Anyway, I enjoy a good sing and I like it when I can give it my all. Unfortunately, this has become a problem for me at Spring Harvest in the last couple of years.
We had a good sermon at church last Sunday. It seemed that our vicar thought otherwise and my heart went out to her because of this. She preached on James 1 1-12 and she talked about perseverance, trials, humility and expectation.
She was humble and sincere and she opened up about her pre-sermon crises of confidence.
There was one thing she said that struck a particular chord with me and that was concerning our necessary reliance on God and how, as Christians we sometimes need to humble ourselves completely to let God take control.
I had a great time at Spring Harvest again this year, it is a wonderful event and I would recommend it without reservation. (We went to Minehead instead of Skeggy due to the scheduling, but enjoyed it so much we will probably do the same next year.)
Of course there’s a “However”, I am cross, after all!
However, there is one aspect of the event that makes me rather uncomfortable and it has done each year we have been. Is the increasing promotion of new material and merchandise detracting from Spring Harvest?
I disappoint myself a lot and always have: I continually set expectations for myself only to fail to meet them. This makes me cross.
I have always envied those who appear to have bags of energy and an iron self-discipline. I seem to have zeroes in both of these attributes. When I was at school and college I performed magnitudes better when external discipline was high, often falling to pieces when left to my own devices (A-level Maths being a particularly striking example). Similarly, I have always performed best in team sports where I can rely on others to help set the pace and provide persistent focus and motivation. In the workplace, I have learnt to harness deadlines in order to drive myself, but even now I often rely on last-minute efforts to deliver.